Alot to say...

Well it has been a long time since i posted a blog. So much has changed. So this blog today will be more than just weight loss. It will be about everything and anything that is on my mind. First off i am down 14 lbs total! I am now at 218. I haven't taken measurements in a while so i am not sure about that. It has not been hard at all to do the right thing. It is a life change that you have to be willing to accept and this is something i must do to be around for many many years. Once you accept the challenge then with just a little support from family or friends then you could succeed. Ok enough about weight loss because there is so much more on my mind. I am so sick and tired of fake people that claim to be a friend but you just cant shake that feeling they are not. I have a "friend" that is going through a rough time and granted she chose to be in that situation but i still feel bad for her and tried to help. Guess where that got me her angry and me without a friend that i was beginning to like having around. She told me that she will come to me when she is ready to talk about things but i know that is bull crap because she has already went to her "best Friend" and talked about everything. I honestly feel that i was a great person to hang around when our kids were in the same class, she needed Internet for her laptop, and when she wanted to get away from her husband. Every since she walked away from her husband and their life together i have been like the plague to her. She says that she is finally able to be herself for the first time in a long time. Well that's fine and honestly i don't like the way she is. If this is how she truly treats people and acts then her best friend can have her because she claims to not need drama...Well she Oozes Drama!! I am tired of being kicked, used, set aside, and ignored! I am worth a heck of alot more than that. I have a few people that i can truly say are a Good Friend. They realize my worth and what they have with me. I am the type of person that if you are going through a hard time i will be there to listen. If you need to vent, cry, yell, laugh, etc.. I would be willing to share it all with you. I ask how you are, what your doing, why you did this or that, and i will ask about the people you hang out with. I don't do it to be nosy i just do it because i was raised to be involved in the lives about those you care about. So it is hard for me to understand that someone who once told me about her leaving her husband and the reasons why would all of a sudden when she does it decides that she doesn't want to talk about her new boyfriend and the life that she is creating. I realized that recently i have become something i hate and that is 2-faced. I act like nothing is wrong when i am around her even though inside i am furious with her. So i have come to the conclusion that i must face the fact that i cant go on this way anymore. She is someone that i don't need in my life because she takes people for granted and doesn't appreciate them. For the longest time i wondered if my husband had it right all along. I have wondered if the way he lives his life is the right way or not. I have come to realize that neither way is right or wrong. Some people though don't deserve the same compassion, respect, and energy that others in your life do.
Then i have another friend that is very critical of others. She bugs me when she acts that way because she is not perfect in any means. No one is perfect. She will claim that she isn't perfect but then get annoyed when others do the same as she has done. She is also one that i feel ignored by because even though she says she wants to get together and do something she doesn't make it easy to accomplish. She only gives a certain day and then gets upset when others cant make it on that day. I feel that if she really wants to get together she could find more than one day that she could hang out and if not then don't get upset when others have plans. So just like with the other person that i mentioned above she will get the same treatment that she bestows upon me. Nothing more nothing less. Maybe if people start treating them the way they are treating others it might trigger something.
Ok now.. something that i haven't wanted to talk about because in a way i was hoping it would just work out and go away. Well i need to get stuff off my chest about it. I am scared that my husband will lose his job if the automakers don't get some sort of relief. Whether a loan, bailout, etc.. We made so many concessions with the last contract that to ask them workers to cut their pay would be a huge slap in the face. What people don't realize is that if they did the drastic cut in pay that they want you are going to see a surge in foreclosures, repossions, and dramatic cut in retail sales. Alot of people have made the comment well stop living above your means and things like that. Here is a newsflash.. At least my family because i cant speak for other families...We don't live above our means. We have an average 3 bed. ranch home. We have 2 vehicles but they are 7 and 5 yrs old. If i could have sold my house last year when things weren't looking good then trust me i would have put it on the market and found something less expensive. The thing is houses are not selling, cars are not selling, and that is supposed to be our fault?? It is supposed to be the fault of the worker that we are not wanting to take a pay cut and lose everything that we already worked so hard for. In a society where your credit score is like your status in life it would be hard to get anyone to agree to screw up their credit and lose everything. I don't buy things that are name brand because i want that status symbol.. Our clothes are not from major department stores (unless there is a HUGE sale), our food is from the local supermarkets, and yes i have cable, Internet, etc.. but i don't go overboard. I cant seem to save money because anytime i do a kid gets sick, something breaks, or just life throws a curve ball. I agree with so many people.. management screwed up but is that a reason to screw up the lives of over 2 million autoworkers that had no say in how the shops were run?? Because trust me if you ask the workers that have been there for more than 5 yrs they would tell you how they would have ran those companies and i can guarantee they would have flourished! This is not something that happened over night this has been happening for a few years and the people that are running the company made the best decisions that they could make. All i know is that i am trying to not let it run my life but it is hard to not think about it all the time. I think about it every time i make a purchase anymore. I wonder if we really need the items that i am about to buy because i am afraid to stretch us to thin. I am so thankful for the upcoming holiday season because that is helping to keep my mind off the things that i can not change. I will give my kids a Christmas they deserve because they earned it. I will not let what is going on change the things i will buy for them because they earned the ability to see presents under the tree that they asked Santa for. Some might be a little more pricey then i want to pay but my husband and i will make the sacrifice to not get each other something and be proud to do it. We are not the important ones.. they are.. we had our Christmases and now it is time for them to have theirs. Forget about the bailout, the economy, the people that don't care, the society in which we live. Forget about it all.. the only thing that matters is family and those that care about you. This is Christmas.. Jesus' birthday.. we should be happy, joyful, and full of love. So here i am letting it all go.. i am not going to dwell on anything that doesn't make me smile. There is no point. I am going to fight to be able to be the person i want to be. All i can hope that my true friends and family members will be there standing by my side instead of standing in my way! I don't want to hurt anyone i really don't but i can not let others dictate who i am, what i believe, or what i do.

10/27/08

Ok.. So i know i haven't posted any weigh ins for a couple weeks and that was because I stayed the same on everything! I have been so disappointed in myself because i felt like i had failed. I don't know how i did it but i searched deep inside and used my thinking cap. Call it willpower, determination, etc.. I just didn't give up.. I started eating a protein shake in the morning along with a healthy lunch/dinner. Plus my energy bars.. I think i would have had a more impressive number but we ate out twice yesterday I know!! I know what you all are thinking.. But this was the first day in a month that i had Bryon home and we did alot of errands..lol Anyways.. I am finally down the First 10lbs!!!
I lost 1 lb.. and then these inches
Shoulders~Down 2
Waist~ Down 2!!
Thighs~ Down 1
Calves~ Down 1/2

I told Connie that once i got down 10lbs.. i would post a new picture so that is what i will do.. Once i get home from picking up the kids i will find somewhere in the house to take a couple pics in the infamous jeans from a earlier post!!..lol I feel very happy today for the accomplishment of that 1 lb. and i believe that is because i read something that Jillian Michael's from the Biggest Loser said.. I will re post it for you..

The action begins when you take the steps. Then you are saying, "I'm worth it." Saying "I can't" is where the craziness comes from. Yes, you are strong. Yes, you are powerful. Yes, you are capable. Whenever you put that energy into the universe, it will all fall in place

Pretty amazing words huh?? Well it must have helped to read it. Now this week i just have to stick to my guns and not eat out twice in one day..LOL

Oh and i have to tell you.. I am going to cash in on a couple of my rewards that i have hit. Next Thursday I have an appt. to get a Mani/Pedi.. I had on my reward list for bry to paint my toes and nails but he is really busy and doesn't really like to do it. lol He does it when i really really want him to but he would rather someone else do it. Plus i got a gift cert. from our bank to save $50.. So i cant pass that up!! I might cash in on another one and that is having Bryon dye my hair the kick butt color that i couldn't find the last time i dyed it.

So needless to say i have a pep in my step and a little uplift to my esteem. I will just keep chanting the words of Jillian.. I am powerful, I am worth it, I am strong, and I am capable! Thank you all for reading.

09/29/08

Well this week has been a little trying and i was tested.. My son turned 6 this week so there was cookies for his class. Then cake and ice cream for his celebration at home. Saturday we ended up eating out as well with Friday night. So i know i was doing so well and then the weekend went down the drain.. Thankfully though i did lose a couple inches and 1 lb!! This week should be better.. Next week though..lol that is another story that is when my daughter turns 9. I am going to try and restrain myself more. Well here are the numbers for the inches.

Shoulders~ Down 1 and 1/2
Chest~ Down 1 and 1/2
Waist ~ Down 1/2

Everything else stayed the same which is ok. The biggest news though is i am able to wear a pair of jeans that i have not been able in a while!!!! I am so excited.. I looked at them on Friday and thought i wonder.. SO i put on a brave face and chanted to myself... Think Skinny..Think Skinny... and i decided to put them on. Not knowing if i would be able to zip them up or not i stay optimistic and they went on zipped up and were a little tight in the waist but not unbearable.. =)
So now i am hoping for them to get more and more comfortable as time goes on. Well i need to get going because it is almost 10 am and i haven't eaten breakfast yet..I am such a bad girl.. I should be working on morning snack right now.. Have a great day and thanks for reading!

09/22/08

Ok so i was really optimistic with my weigh in this morning that i would see lbs lost. Even though the family went to the Renaissance faire yesterday. I tried my best to eat the healthy stuff. I did indulge on an apple dumpling though because those only come around once a year! =)
SO anyways...lol we walked around so much yesterday that i figured i would lose at least a lb. But i was quite disappointed. I stayed the same. Granted i measured and lost some inches here and there but no lost in weight at all. I mean don't get me wrong anytime you can lose inches makes you feel wonderful so i was happy for that. I got to thinking what maybe i was doing wrong and i realized i didn't drink as much water as i should have yesterday. I haven't been eating lean proteins for my snacks for the week. I went for convience instead of what i need to burn this fat. So i am going to be eating some leaner protein for snacks this week and see if that makes the difference. Plus i am going to try and workout on my Wii Fit at least 30 mins each day. I already did my 30 for today plus going up and down the stairs for laundry. Here are the accomplishments on my inches though...

Shoulders~ Down 2
Left Bicep~ Down 1 1/2
Right Bicep~ Down 1/2
Right Forearm~ Down 1/2
Hips~ Down 1/2
Left Thigh~ Down 3... Not sure if i am measuring in the same spot on this one..lol
Right Thigh~ Down 2


So like i said i wasn't thrilled to see no change in my weight for the past 2 wks but i am happy to see that something is coming off.. lol
Have a great day and thanks for reading!

9/08/08

Ok so today was weigh in day including measurements. After being sick for 2 wks i was not expecting much. I was just hoping to stay the same on measurements and to maybe be back down to what i was before i got sick.. Well to my surprise my body amazed me once more.

I lost 5 lbs. which put me down to 224. Which is 1 lb less then before. Plus i lost:
3 inches on my shoulders
1/2 inch on my waist
1/2 inch on each forearm and
1/2 inch on my left calve!!!

So needless to say i am impressed with how i am doing. This weekend was full of tests that i had to overcome. Football season started and I love football. I know you probably don't hear many women say that. But i am a rare one. I have my favorite players and teams and i root for them. But along with watching the football the hubby and I usually do snacks. SO I was proud of myself instead of the salty not good snack i reached for the apples, peaches, carrots etc.. Also because of it being the weekend i didn't eat every 2 1/2hrs like i should have and i need to find a way to stop doing that. The only way i am going to get this metabolism to rev up is get it trained. Well i have to go for now. Have to get the kids ready for school and update myspace real quick. Have a great day!

09/03/08

Well i know i haven't been on in a while but thankfully i am back to 100%. Those 2 wks that i was down due to illness was not fun at all. I told many people that i would not even wish that on my worst enemy. I was not only sick but had to postpone my diet for them 2 wks. But thankfully i only gained back 4 of the 7 that i lost. So when i started back up my diet this Tuesday i was still down 3 lbs. Hopefully Monday when i weigh myself again i will be back down a couple more pounds. I am taking things a little slower this time though because they want you to cut alot of things out of your diet immediately. I have been eating healthier foods for a long time now except for the occasional ice cream or chocolate. lol So the main thing that i need to focus on is only eating one serving of the carbs and proteins. If i get hungry i need to remember to snack on veggies and fruits. Those are considered "free" foods. We will see what happens. I realized while on vacation over Labor Day weekend that i am not happy with my body at all. I envision a whole different person when i look at myself and my body is not reflecting that. So its time to change it. Not only for the health effects that it will have but the self esteem that i will get back as well. I will try and be on more and more but today my plate is full of laundry, housework, and getting the camping stuff put away for the year. Which in a way makes me sad because i have loved going on these trips. The memories that my hubby and i are making for our kids has brought them so much joy and has been wonderful for us. I am seeing alot of things through their eyes and it just amazes me. I am trying to see if i can maybe talk the hubby into one last trip when the leaves begin to change color. I just have to figure out the best way to ask him. lol =)
Have a great day everyone and thanks for reading!

August 25th, 2008...

Well Sorry that i haven't been on in a couple weeks. I just got over being sick. They told me that from what the test showed i had viral meningitis. It took me real close to 2 weeks to get the fevers gone and to get some energy back. I postponed my diet because of it because i had to drink massive amounts of Gatorade. Also i had to eat Popsicles and stuff like that. All of which are not on my diet plan. I will weigh myself Tuesday Sept. 2ND and start it all over again. The reason i am not starting back up this week is because i am not 100% yet and this is also the first week of school for my kids. Then if that wasn't enough i am tossing in one last family vacay over labor day weekend!! Our family has gone through so much in the past couple years that we are in need of another family vacay. One was just not enough for this summer. Besides i am a firm believer that it is good for the soul to get away every now and then even if it is to a cheap campground. The outdoors can be a good soul cleanser. At least for our family it is. lol All i know is that while being sick the only thing that kept me going and gave me the ability to fight it was knowing i had something to look forward to. A reward. This weekend the sand will be in my toes, the sun on my face, and i will hear the waves while my kids splash in them. Heavenly plain and simple. Well i am going to go for now. My kids only have a half day so i am trying to get a few things done before they get out. Have a great day!

First Weigh In. 8/11/08

Well this morning i was just expecting a couple lbs. I am trying to be realistic this time around. In fact i set up rewards for each week for the next 10 wks and for this week i only expected to lose 2 lbs. That is because i am just doing the eating portion of my new diet. I am not going to do the exercise portion until my kids go back to school. It is just easier that way. So anyways I will tell you all that lost in inches...

Neck- down 1/2
Chest- down 1
Waist- down 1/2
Hips - down 1 1/2
Left thigh- down 1
Right thigh- down 1 1/2

All the rest stayed the same. But considering the numbers for just one week and just by doing my normal activity.. I think this is amazing. Now my weight loss I lost 7.8 lbs!!! I am now down to 225.0!! I cant believe these results. This is definitely going to encourage me to keep on going.

First Post...08/08/08

Well hello all.. this is my first post on here. This blog is designed to help me vent about losing weight/getting healthy, being a mom, and everything else that goes with daily life. If you read this then Thank you. If you don't then its not a big deal it wont upset me.

So this week i had a pretty trying week. My air conditioning went out. I know that some people don't have air conditioning because they cant afford it or what not.. But i need the air because i suffer from migraines and they are triggered by the heat/humidity. So needless to say from Saturday until Tuesday when i finally gave up and just went to my moms i was suffering from a migraine the whole time. My medicine that i have wasn't working and since it wasn't working my stomach ended up becoming nauseous. Not fun times so i decided to take the couch at my parents house for the night which after being on my own since i was 20 it was quite interesting. With every experience though i have learned a lesson with this one and that is before you get stuck with warranties through a company find out their policies. I found out that the company that installed the central air unit in June 07 offers 24/7 service. That was one of the biggest things that drew me to that company when we were taking offers to put it in. But now 14 months later i find out that in the summer their 24/7 is not applicable on the weekends! Now to me that is NOT 24/7. Also i found out that Air conditioning is NOT a priority in the summer BUT heat is a priority in the winter. The owner of this company's exact words were to me "People can find ways to stay cool in the summer but i wont let you freeze in the winter" The last time i checked you can stay warm in the winter as well. I have heard of people dieing from heat exhaustion AND hypothermia! To me i think it only makes sense to have the heat be a priority in the winter and then make the air a priority in the summer. Alot of the people i talk to have told me they agree with this. OH and before i forget this i found out that he only gets parts on Monday and Wednesday. So if you have something break before the weekend you wont get it fixed til Monday. He has no way of getting the parts quicker either. Anyways though off this subject because i just get irate when i think about it.

On to happier news. I started up my "diet". the reason for the quotes.. I don't like that word. I actually like calling it a life change or getting healthy. So anyways I am on my way to getting healthy. I am following this new plan that is called the "Six Week Body makeover". Supposedly once 6 wks is done i will be down about 30lbs. Granted i have alot more than that to lose but hey i figure if i can get close to that 30 in 6 wks then i should be real close to what i want to be by the end of the year. The purpose of this blog and the myspace page i made was for a place to declare all the trials of getting healthy. One of those trials is addressing all the issues. So the first issue to address.. I am ashamed of myself for getting to this point but i weighed myself Monday morning and it said 232lbs. That is the most i have ever been in my life. I have never put anyone but myself down when it comes to weight because i have struggled with it my whole life. My hopes is that by going through this and documenting it through here and myspace then maybe just maybe i can help someone else get healthy. To feel good in your own skin i feel is important to living life to the fullest. Right now i do not feel comfortable in my skin. I am embarrassed with it and so i have decided to change that. My Goal is to be down to about 150lbs. because i am only 5'2". So that is 82 lbs. i need to lose. So the goal is to be down at least 42 lbs. by my birthday in January. So i have 21 wks to lose 42 lbs. which if i can lose 2lbs Every wk til then i will hit 42 right on the mark. I have lost 60lbs before on a different plan called "Medical Weight Loss Clinic" but i was not able to keep it off. So i am trying this and seeing if they can help me keep it off. So every Monday i will post the results of my weight if i am down or up and if i have lost any inches. Those i will not post because it was embarrassing enough to post my weight. On my myspace page i will be posting pics soon. I have to try and find a good one of me before i started this because that was the one thing i forgot to do while getting ready for this. One of the biggest things that i am having to overcome with getting healthy is how much water you have to drink. I love veggies and fruit so that was never an issue but the water i never got used to. I have been doing pretty good but i am not up to the amount of ounces they want me to be drinking..lol I am sure that with time though i will.

Well thats all that i have for now. I am not sure if i will post on here everyday i guess it will just have to depend on my family and how busy they keep me. =) Have a great day everyone!